this house is so much more of a trigger than I realized. Thank god it’s just over a week until I move into my new place with my sister.
I'm raging so hard right now.
[[MORE]]Okay I get it, times are tough, money’s tight, you’re eating pasta a lot, whatever. Your financial tough times are not a reason to ask other people for money. Money is a touchy subject for me. I’ve watched my parents struggle with their own financial struggles yet still they still provide me with an extremely blessed life. I worry about my financial stability all the...
I bought Target size 10 shorts today, which is a victory because Target sizes tend to run small. Well that’s what I’ve always found. So yay. I’m not really comfortable with shorts but maybe I will be. I also bought a romper and it looks so cute. Alex basically demanded I buy it when I sent him the picture haha.
Sometimes it really feels like I’m the only one who actually cares about this visa. I put it first, I make sure all the ducks are in a row, and I make sure everyone else’s ducks are in a row. It would be really nice for once if when I told alex something he’d respond saying he already knew or if when I asked my mom if she’s done something she responded that she had....
So unhappy. I binged. fuck. i don’t even know what to say. I ate an entire small stromboli and a thing of fries. I know it’s not the worst, but I feel horrible. I know I should just move on. It’s taking everything in me not to shove my fingers down my throat. I feel like this flood gate has been opened of things I want to eat, the self hatred, the regret. I’ve felt so...
Does anyone else eat granola by dipping a yogurt covered spoon in a cup of it? I hate when granola gets soggy so this is what I do.
why is the beach so god damn expensive? I don’t want to spend 1000 on not even a week. everything is almost or more than 200 a night. ugh.
I bought Zombies Run!
It’s that app where you run and it tells you a story about running from zombies while you pick up supplies. I don’t think it’s worth the $8, but if you have money sitting in your itunes account, or have it to blow, go for it. I had money still from the $100 giftcard i got for buying my mac in the fall. If you get it make sure you’ve created a playlist beforehand as you...
I called the National Visa Center to find out where our petition was at and they informed me that it was sent to the London Embassy yesterday!! We have a case number and as soon as alex has his police certificate we can schedule his medical! I’m so happy, I heard about a possible month long back log at the NVC but apparently not. I’m so ecstatic. yayayayayay i’m getting...
I get stupidly excited about salad when it's super...
I accidentally quite a bit of candy. I had been doing so well resisting my unnecessary food urges. ugh.
My confidence has taken a turn for the worst. I feel huge and flabby all the time. I can’t stop thinking where i would be if i only worked a bit harder.
saggy tits, flat ass.
Oh excuse me for wanting to actually have a...
my soul hurts. flyers. come on.
this game should be tied. fuck this.
Watching the Flyers is actually sad.
I am so stupidly in love.
I’m officially a size 10. Tried some pants on today and size 10 fits. this was a nonscale goal i had for a long time. It’s nice to see it happen, new goal is a 6.
fatgirlskinnydiary: Get in the 140s again!!
I was working last night. I work at Target as a cashier. I live in the suburbs so a lot of people have their kids with them and often the kids ask for gum/candy/soda/toys. Last night a girl asked her mother for tic tacs. Her mother said no and she asked why. Her mother pointed to her stomach and said “that’s why”. I was instantly sad for the girl. I remember being that age and...